I know how to do the hard stuff. That doesn’t mean the hard stuff isn’t hard. Or that it doesn’t feel like work.
I know how to muck through shit.
Why?
Because I’ve mucked through shit before. I’ve had to completely re-haul my patterns, my habits, my behaviors and my beliefs around my body, food, exercise, and my self-worth.
And do you know that I did a lot of it {at first} on my own?
Of course I reached out to people when I FINALLY freakin’ realized “It’s OK to ask for help!” And then those people got me even further on my path of doing the work.
But it’s a powerful realization to sit down with: You can alter your patterns, habits, behaviors, and beliefs.
It’s a journey.
And I’m going to tell you, the most difficult part of the journey {for me anyway} is saying I want to make these shifts. Is saying I want help.
Not just from this person and that person and this other person over there. But accepting help… no wait … RECEIVING help in the myriad of ways it comes to you.
One day I decided NO MORE with my eating disorder. I was probably mid-forward fold in yoga class. Sweating through my tank top. And I made this decision on my own. For myself.
No one said to me: Maggie, you have to stop.
No one said to me: Maggie, no more.
Actually, that’s not entirely true.
Because I said it to me! I decided I was done. I decided I WANTED to change the way I treated myself. I decided I wanted to change my relationship with myself.
I decided I was ready to take my emotional journey one step further.
I decided it was time to turn down (way down) the volume on self-hate and self-loathing.
I didn’t decide because someone told me. Because hardly anybody knew in the first place!
This is not to say there’s no room for support from others. This is not to say there’s no room for interventions in this world.
But the person in the seat of “needing change” has GOT to be the one to ultimately flip the switch and choose the direction of their emotional, physical, and spiritual journey.
This is so powerful to me because when I am confronted with a new challenge, a new pattern in my life to shift {example: I did it with my romantic relationships!} I know that I can do it.
Does it mean it’s gonna be easy peasy? NOPE. It’s still gonna be damn hard.
Does it mean it’s gonna be so worth it? YES.
maggie converse 